Enough is Enough

My lack of posting is probably evidence enough to show I am not doing the right thing. While I have not added on lots of weight, I am up to 181.9. Not going to 182! No way! I don't know why I can't seem to get my head into the game. I know I don't want to continue with the Medi-fast--at least not totally. I may have to go there if I don't get my game on soon. I start the days off right but by the end of just one day I can't even think about eating right. I want everything, both good and bad.

I have not been going to the gym unless I am seeing the trainer. Every day I tell myself I need to get busy and get started. I think I have myself convinced and all syked and then I get up the next day and think, "I'll start tomorrow." I am actually struggling to get 4-6k steps on my Up band. Really? This lazy attitude has got to go.

So here I am writing a post in hopes it will inspire or embarrass me to get going. I am going to the grocery store and picking up fresh fruits, veggies and some meat so I can prepare meals for the next week. I can't change my attitude without preparation. Tomorrow is the first day of Chinese New Year and I think I will make some Chicken Lettuce Wraps and maybe, just maybe I will bake some eggrolls.

I have been drinking my Port nearly every night and I finished my last bottle Monday. I am not replacing it so I will not have it here. I think that is one of the things that has helped me maintain this week. It's not like I need to drink--I just want it. And I seem to want it more when I know it is there. I don't miss it when it isn't there.

Maybe I will start posting pictures of my food, me exercising (ha ha) me before and then me after. This has been a rather boring blog without pictures. Maybe I will be more inspired if I make it more interesting. Let's face it, when it comes to photography I am always more willing to cooperate just so I can take a picture.

Game on!!

A New Beginning!

OMG! I was a little disappointed this morning when I got on the scale. I jumped to 181.4. It's my own fault. I wanted to continue celebrating right through the first day of the year. I should have quit while I was ahead. No big deal. Game on as of today.
I am not quite sure how I am going to go about the dieting this year. I will probably get back to medi-fast at the end of January. I still have a lot of meals I need to use up before I go ahead full force. In the mean time I am going to go with 2 or three lean and green meals a day with my medi-fast meals in between or maybe a piece of fruit. I know from past experience I need to eat 5 meals a day. (Even a  fruit constitutes a meal.) If this continues to work I may just keep it at that since I have to learn to eat that way. My biggest problem is being prepared. It's always been my problem. I have to work really hard on that.
In addition to learning to eat right I have got to increase my exercise. With my Jawbone Up I should be getting a minimum of 10,000 steps a day and I very seldom reach that minimum. Looks like I have got to work a lot harder at that.
I have a lot of work to do and it will take a year of improving my eating habits, exercise habits and routine habits. Less computer time is going to be one of my biggest obstacles this year. But, it has to be done.
Here's looking forward to a great 2014, better health and a better attitude will make it happen!!!

A Good End for a Better Begining

All in all this year has been good. Do you all see a "brand new me?" Probably not. After all, I've been much thinner than this. Am I different? A brand new me says I will be a different person. Maybe I titled this blog wrong. I actually like who I am but I was tired of being fat. At nearly 60 I did not want to enter my senior years in an unhealthy state. My goal for 2013 was to lose 50 pounds--at least--and to be more healthy. I lost 45 pounds but during the holidays put on 12 pounds. Yuck! I hate that, but I must admit I am happy to be 178.6 pounds at the end of this year. It sure beats the 210 I started with this year. Though I am a little disappointed in the weight gain at the end of the year, I have to say I am pleased to still be down 32 pounds. I feel better, I look better and I think that makes for a better me. Not necessarily a brand new me, but definitely a better me.
On the eve of the new year, I hope to return to my diet, exercise more and remove more of this unsightly weight. I hope to increase my activity levels and to improve me! I want to be less of a procrastinator and maintain more control over my eating without having to buy "diet" food. I have a way to go but, I will get there.
Happy New Year! Here's to a Brand New Better Me in 2014!

Can You Over Diet?

Hmmm, I'm just wondering out loud. Can you over diet? I know there are people who start a diet and manage to keep it up forever but I am sick of it. Seriously, I cannot seem to get back on track. I haven't been horrible but enough so that I have gained 7-8 pounds and cannot take it off. I am managing to not gain anymore but it has been a struggle. The worse part is that I am not really indulging on things. Well maybe the wine at night. I really need to stop that--at least during the week. Then there are the potatoes and pasta. I just keep telling myself, "get through the holidays and then you will be ok." That sounds good but I am not eating "holiday" foods. Maybe it is the hectic part of this year that keeps me from watching and planning. I'm going to blame it on that. I will be happy if I just maintain this weight and then start again in January.
I think my new years resolution should be to give up excuses!! Ha ha.

Enough is Enough

Oh my, but I have been bad. I knew I was going to be bad for Thanksgiving--that was a given. I did not plan to be bad for a week or two, but I was bad--very bad. Why can't I just have fun for a day? Why can't I just stop at one piece? You would think after 9 months of rigid dieting I would not need to over indulge just because. I seem to be out of control. I start off good in the morning and by evening I am thinking, "it's just a glass of wine" "it's just a little piece" "its just one thing" but it isn't just a glass of wine it becomes 2 or 3 glasses of wine. And it becomes 2 or 3 big pieces--I don't know that I know what a little piece is. It becomes 2 or 3 things. Then I justify everything because I went to the gym or I plan to go to the gym in the morning. OMG! I need to STOP!

Ok, I am done with my little pity party. I have been going to the gym more regularly but I need to be more active during the day too. My new commitment to myself is to have a minimum of 6,000. steps on my up band and 10,000 if I go to the gym. I must exceed the minimum if I want to indulge in any treat. There I said it. In addition, if I am not going to remain on this rigid diet I need to at least watch the calories as well as the nutritional value of the food I eat. Isn't that why I dieted to begin with? The whole idea was to learn to eat more healthy while I lose weight.

Well, I need to get busy and plan my week. I'm back on . . .

Nothing New

It was sad month in Georgia and it is all my fault. I have been totally out of control. I gained 8 pounds since the last time I posted. I am so disappointed in myself because I have worked too hard over the past year to do what I have done. I tried, but I could not stop myself.

On the upside it is all good. I have gotten a hold of myself and turned things around. I lost 3 pounds this week so I only have 5 pounds to get back to my New self. At this point I am just trying to maintain for the next couple of weeks/months. I need to get through the holidays and then start to focus all over. I think things will turn out good since the new year is upon us and it is time to renew our new years resolutions. 

I am excited about another new start. If I can just lose the last 5 pounds I will be starting the new year at 165 pounds. I hope to lose another 20 pounds. 2014 should be a much easier year for me. I look so forward to it. I am looking forward to feeling better--although I already feel better--and shopping!! OMG I have hated shopping for the last 15 years. It has become fun again.

I look forward to spending the holidays with my family and starting anew for 2014. If you do not hear form me for a little while do not panic. My computer has crashed and it will not be back for at least another week. With the holidays I plan to be busy.

I'm Going the Wrong Way!

Ok, something needs to change! I am back up to 171. I don't even want to get on the scale today. I seem to have lost control and cannot get my act together. I have seen this happen before. At this stage of the game I think I need to give it up. Don't worry--it's a temporary fix. I need to try to maintain for a while and then start dieting again. I think I get bored with dieting after 6 months and it just becomes work, so I plan to just maintain through the holidays and then kick back in for the new year.

Over all I am quite proud because I was up to 210 at one time. Even 171 is a great place to be after all this time. I will continue on the medi-fast for the next week so I can get back down into the 160's.  After Thanksgiving I will try maintaining by eating only white meat and mostly veggies. I will avoid the snacking and definitely keep out the fast food. I do know I need to have fruit and veggie snacks or some of those 100 calorie packs of nuts. I think this will get me through the holidays and I will be ready once again in 2014 to hit the diet race.