A Good End for a Better Begining

All in all this year has been good. Do you all see a "brand new me?" Probably not. After all, I've been much thinner than this. Am I different? A brand new me says I will be a different person. Maybe I titled this blog wrong. I actually like who I am but I was tired of being fat. At nearly 60 I did not want to enter my senior years in an unhealthy state. My goal for 2013 was to lose 50 pounds--at least--and to be more healthy. I lost 45 pounds but during the holidays put on 12 pounds. Yuck! I hate that, but I must admit I am happy to be 178.6 pounds at the end of this year. It sure beats the 210 I started with this year. Though I am a little disappointed in the weight gain at the end of the year, I have to say I am pleased to still be down 32 pounds. I feel better, I look better and I think that makes for a better me. Not necessarily a brand new me, but definitely a better me.
On the eve of the new year, I hope to return to my diet, exercise more and remove more of this unsightly weight. I hope to increase my activity levels and to improve me! I want to be less of a procrastinator and maintain more control over my eating without having to buy "diet" food. I have a way to go but, I will get there.
Happy New Year! Here's to a Brand New Better Me in 2014!

Can You Over Diet?

Hmmm, I'm just wondering out loud. Can you over diet? I know there are people who start a diet and manage to keep it up forever but I am sick of it. Seriously, I cannot seem to get back on track. I haven't been horrible but enough so that I have gained 7-8 pounds and cannot take it off. I am managing to not gain anymore but it has been a struggle. The worse part is that I am not really indulging on things. Well maybe the wine at night. I really need to stop that--at least during the week. Then there are the potatoes and pasta. I just keep telling myself, "get through the holidays and then you will be ok." That sounds good but I am not eating "holiday" foods. Maybe it is the hectic part of this year that keeps me from watching and planning. I'm going to blame it on that. I will be happy if I just maintain this weight and then start again in January.
I think my new years resolution should be to give up excuses!! Ha ha.

Enough is Enough

Oh my, but I have been bad. I knew I was going to be bad for Thanksgiving--that was a given. I did not plan to be bad for a week or two, but I was bad--very bad. Why can't I just have fun for a day? Why can't I just stop at one piece? You would think after 9 months of rigid dieting I would not need to over indulge just because. I seem to be out of control. I start off good in the morning and by evening I am thinking, "it's just a glass of wine" "it's just a little piece" "its just one thing" but it isn't just a glass of wine it becomes 2 or 3 glasses of wine. And it becomes 2 or 3 big pieces--I don't know that I know what a little piece is. It becomes 2 or 3 things. Then I justify everything because I went to the gym or I plan to go to the gym in the morning. OMG! I need to STOP!

Ok, I am done with my little pity party. I have been going to the gym more regularly but I need to be more active during the day too. My new commitment to myself is to have a minimum of 6,000. steps on my up band and 10,000 if I go to the gym. I must exceed the minimum if I want to indulge in any treat. There I said it. In addition, if I am not going to remain on this rigid diet I need to at least watch the calories as well as the nutritional value of the food I eat. Isn't that why I dieted to begin with? The whole idea was to learn to eat more healthy while I lose weight.

Well, I need to get busy and plan my week. I'm back on . . .

Nothing New

It was sad month in Georgia and it is all my fault. I have been totally out of control. I gained 8 pounds since the last time I posted. I am so disappointed in myself because I have worked too hard over the past year to do what I have done. I tried, but I could not stop myself.

On the upside it is all good. I have gotten a hold of myself and turned things around. I lost 3 pounds this week so I only have 5 pounds to get back to my New self. At this point I am just trying to maintain for the next couple of weeks/months. I need to get through the holidays and then start to focus all over. I think things will turn out good since the new year is upon us and it is time to renew our new years resolutions. 

I am excited about another new start. If I can just lose the last 5 pounds I will be starting the new year at 165 pounds. I hope to lose another 20 pounds. 2014 should be a much easier year for me. I look so forward to it. I am looking forward to feeling better--although I already feel better--and shopping!! OMG I have hated shopping for the last 15 years. It has become fun again.

I look forward to spending the holidays with my family and starting anew for 2014. If you do not hear form me for a little while do not panic. My computer has crashed and it will not be back for at least another week. With the holidays I plan to be busy.