That's right! I am not going on that ride any more. The past six months have been disappointment after disappointment. While I have had a few good moments of weight loss, the majority of the time I have been adding back all that hard earned weight loss from last year. Talk about disappointing.
I was on such a high last year as I succeeded to lose weight and feel good about myself. I just don't know what got into me. Day after day I would have that discussion with myself about all the hard work and energy that went into losing the weight and how I had to get back on track. But, I never heard myself talk. I couldn't seem to get on the right train. Then I got on a damned roller coaster that went down more than up. Or is it up more than down?
Yesterday I woke up and tried to think of how to get off the roller coaster while it was still moving. I was gaining more rapidly and I knew I had to Jump off. I did and I am feeling so good. The first thing I did was tell my husband no more alcohol for me. I can't have another drink until I lose 20 pounds. That will be my reward--maybe. The next thing I did was contact a good friend who had a rigorous workout schedule and asked for her help. She lives near by and I knew I needed someone who could motivate me and work out with me. She jumped on it. Last night we went for a very brisk 5 mile walk. We are going to do it again Wednesday. She said she was going to go grocery shopping with me to make sure I prepared food in advance and made better food choices. I am going to quit the gym I currently belong to and join the one where she belongs. It is around the corner instead of 20 minutes away so I think that will help. She said she would take it easy on me and I told her not to do that. I said be tough on me, I really need it.
I woke up feeling so good about getting started and I have been eating better just because I feel good. Life style change--her I come!!
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